I Will Always Love You But I Will Never Like You Again
How quantum physics explains the strange science of loving someone you can't stand anymore
There's something peculiar about the way memories change their chemical composition over time. Like water left too long in a copper vessel, they take on new properties, become something else entirely.
Yesterday I found myself staring at the molecular structure of us—a photograph tucked into an old book, smiling faces frozen in a moment when love and like still shared the same atomic weight.
The photo slipped from the pages like some kind of cosmic joke while I was cleaning out our old closet. Your crooked smile looked back at me—the one I used to find charming but now reads like a warning sign I was too blind to see.
They tell you love changes over time. What they don't tell you is how it can mutate into something unrecognizable while still carrying the same label.
Like a word repeated so many times it loses meaning, except the meaning doesn't just disappear—it transforms into something else entirely.
Something that still holds the shape of love but carries the weight of everything that came after.
When elements separate
Scientists say matter cannot be destroyed, only transformed. I wonder if that's true of feelings too.
The love doesn't vanish; it morphs into something else and becomes a new compound with different properties. Still love, but now it carries a bitter aftertaste.
I keep replaying it in my head like some twisted experiment. Like if I could just pinpoint where it all went wrong, I could undo it. Your laugh used to feel like home.
Now it makes my skin crawl.
The physics of emotional phase transitions
Nobody warns you about this possibility—that love and like can undergo phase separation, like oil and water that once emulsified together perfectly.
One day, you just wake up and realize they've divided themselves into distinct layers, defying all attempts at reformation.
I can pinpoint the exact moment everything shifted. We were at that coffee shop we used to love. You were talking about work, and I was watching you.
The way you kept checking your phone, how you barely looked at me, the little throat clear you do before each sentence. All these tiny habits I once found endearing. But sitting there, something had changed.
These weren't quirks anymore—they were proof.
Proof that somehow, without any grand finale, we had become strangers who knew too much about each other.
The strange mathematics of forever
I've been calculating the exact moment it happened, trying to pinpoint the precise second when like began its slow migration away from love.
Was it during that Tuesday argument about dirty dishes? Or maybe that Sunday morning when your silence felt heavier than usual?
The equation remains unsolved.
But honestly? Maybe trying to find that one moment is bullshit. All these tiny things pile up day after day until one morning you wake up and everything's different. And you can't even explain how you got there.
Parallel universe theory
In some alternate reality, we're still both—the people who love and like each other. The people who laugh at inside jokes and share comfortable silences. But in this universe, we've split into our base elements.
I hold the heavy metals of love while like has evaporated into the atmosphere—inert, unreactive, floating away.
I wonder if that version of us is happy. I wonder if they know what they narrowly avoided.
I wonder if they ever look at their reality and feel the strange pull of this one, like a phantom limb aching in the night.
The conservation of emotional energy
They say energy cannot be created or destroyed, and maybe that's why the love remains even as like vanishes—some fundamental law of emotional physics keeping one constant while allowing the other to transform.
A universal balance maintained through inevitable change, where hearts somehow hold these impossible contradictions. Where love persists while like erodes away.
It's a strange equation to balance—this persistent love that refuses to dissolve while every trace of like has evaporated into nothingness.
The math of it is both elegant and cruel.
An immutable law of emotional thermodynamics that I never wanted to understand but now can't stop observing.
And maybe that's exactly how it's supposed to be.
So relatable - nicely written. I really liked how you painted pictures in my mind and explained exactly what happened to my first marriage. I still love him today, have good memories but swipe my forehead and let out a shewwwww of gratitude that I’m not married to him anymore!
That was elegant and beautiful. Thanks for your words.